I’m not sure why I took a blogging hiatus. For a while I realized I needed to focus on the tangible projects in my life, instead of the internet ones. Then I lost access to my account for a bit, and then it just seemed so long, that it was hard to know where to start.
In the past couple of months, life has been wonderfully crazy. Caleb will making his arrival in just a few days (Friday to be exact). I must admit that I’m in a bit of disbelief that I’m actually having another baby. After waiting almost 5 years to meet our Savannah, this pregnancy has flown by. It has helped that it has been completely uneventful and without complications. I’ve never been this pregnant before, so it’s been fun to get to this point. I am most looking forward to the probability that my baby will actually get to stay in the room with me this time, and we will probably get to go home together. It will be a welcomed new experience for us all.
I must admit that my biggest concern is for my first baby, Savannah. I know that I will love Caleb just as much, and that my love for Savannah will not be diminished, but it’s hard to grasp exactly how that all works. I’ve already admitted that I’ll need Savannah to be a part of the process as much as possible. I know she will be well taken care of during my few days ‘away’, but it will be me that will need to stay connected with her. It makes me a little sad to think that she will have to share so much. We have so much fun together, playing tea party, coloring, and creating. I know that there will be lots more of that, but I can’t deny the fact that it will be different. The beauty of it is that it will be different, but it will be better. She will have a playmate, a friend, and a brother for life.
Christmas was wonderful this year. She woke up Christmas morning and within a minute threw her milk down and raced over to see the new toys. We spent a leisurely morning unwrapping each gift and letting her enjoy it for a while, before we moved onto the next one. She is growing so fast! She is saying more words and communicating a lot more. Most of her communication is either through sign language or her own “baby language” (which includes fits and all). She understands more than we think she does. It always surprises us when we ask her to do something new, and she actually does it. She is a true sweetheart though. She loves her cuddle time and requires frequent hugs throughout the day. The other night we were driving down the road and I looked back and told her that I loved her, and she sweetly blew me a kiss. Those are the moments that you never want to forget and that make being a mommy the best job in the world.